Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Not for the weak of heart....SERIOUSLY graphic
Tomorrow I have an appt at wound care center, so they can pull this all apart and make sure things still look right inside/all around. I am scared of going in and finding out they need to cut out more. And not looking forward to the pain of it all either. It makes me feel sick to think about taking any more steps backwards with this mess. I just want to recover from this all. But in the end, I will do whatever I have to, to ultimately be there for my kids and Doug. And so I keep taking steps forward, one at a time, even when I don't want to. Thank goodness I have my kids, who help distract me for moments throughout the day from this mess. I am very blessed to have them all. And when I hold Ansen and he stares at me, it feels like he can see right into my soul. He gives me strength, ...even when sometimes it feels like I have none left. So thankful for my life, my children, my husband, my friends, my family....so many blessings that I need to concentrate on while I trudge along this not so very pleasant at all, painful, feels like it will last forever and never end, path.