I don't know if its bc of what I went through this last year or what, but I can't keep my eyes off all the amazing trees, thanking God for the vibrant colors all around me. My new favorite colors are orange and red!!! It takes my breath away; the bold yet comforting palate all around me. We went for a ride the other day so I could get some of my (knifty) knitting done, but I couldn't keep my eyes off those trees and those amazing autumn leaves. I guess I never really took the time to just take in the beauty of them before...always so busy, and so preoccupied by that upcoming winter quickly following fall. This journey of mine has slowed me down, in not so great ways, but also in good ways like this. The fact that I can suck in the splendor of those warm colored leaves, sharing the joy of it all with my SIX kids and my husband-well its an amazing gift. Each day is a gift to me. Those leaves are a gift to me. The cool weather (that BETTER come back soon) is a huge gift to me as well! So incredibly thankful for it all!
Last year at this time, the VERY beginning of Ansen was on its way to being created. He began his journey and fight for life, as I began mine. All around me were these same gorgeous leaves I was too preoccupied to notice. Ansen's life has been a gift to me, as this journey has been a gift to me. I am a changed person bc of it, and I appreciate that I was given the gift to "see" the world with different eyes. No time to be too busy making plans for tomorrow-each today is a day that needs to be celebrated and savored. And we have our days where I wish for that tomorrow, no worries....but in the grand scheme of life, too many of us spend too much time worrying about the tomorrows, when the todays are the most precious and fleeting. Just like those autumn leaves. I need to take in the beauty of those leaves today, bc tomorrow they might be nothing but a pile of dull, brown leaves on the ground..nothing but a memory. Thank you God for the beauty of my life, the life of my children and my husband, the beauty of my family and friendships, and the beauty of New England and its foliage. I am thoroughly enjoying those leaves, as I also try to commit to memory those vibrant reds and oranges in the fall themed scarf I am slowly but surely creating!
P.S. God, if there is any way that Ansen could take a teeny, tiny nap once a day so that I could finish that scarf before NEXT fall, I would really appreciate that as well. ;)