Things not looking swell again...

Drainage went from pinkish to yellow/tan (NOT good) and the bottom of my stomach below this wound nightmare is now red, swollen and warm to the touch.  Nurse thinks that wound fluid has been collecting down there and my body can't absorb it nor does it have anywhere to get out.  Honestly, if I have to get cut open again, in a new spot and heal for many months again, I don't know if I have the strength to make it through again.  I know the pain and the hell I would have to endure, its way too fresh in my memory.  Please pray that this can be taken care of more simply...somehow. Waiting for nurse to call back once she talks to wound care (who have been very laid back about this from the start-do they not remember what I have gone through this last 4 months.)  WHY can't I get a break with this wound? In 2 days, it will be 4 months since my surgery.  I am feeling very lost today.  :( :(