Nothing much to update....

Just sitting around, waiting for time to pass.  And bc all my other kids are sick, I have had LOTS to keep my mind off of things.  I have an appointment with maternal/fetal specialist on January 6th and I am really nervous.  I am hoping that I can get some reassurance at that appointment, and I will leave that appointment feeling like I am finally in great hands this pregnancy.  Still trying to focus on the positives and try not to freak myself out about potential negatives.  It's hard though.  And lately I keep thinking about wanting to tell everyone about this baby.  I want to celebrate this baby with the world!  But then I come back to reality and realize that many won't be celebrating our 6th child with us....most think that us having 5 children was insane enough.  And that makes me sad.  This baby is so special bc s/he will complete our family.  I get teary thinking of the special moment we finally meet this baby that has been on our hearts for the last 2 years.  So I wait and think, but try to think too much...and I want to tell, but don't tell...and we quietly celebrate this baby in our own ways for now.  Hopefully one day soon, I will have more to update.  But for now, it remains a waiting game again....