Its been hard, we have had many obstacles (23 days of NICU and 3 subsequent hospitalizations for me after the fact being the main ones) and I have stayed strong with it, despite many times I felt that quitting would be the much easier option for me. I have been told that healing might be slowed down by nursing and that I should really consider quitting just for that fact as well. I have wanted to quit more times then I can count. It's not easy pumping for a NICU baby for weeks. It's not easy feeding a baby while suffering an immensely painful wound and every position feels like torture...when pain at wound is so intense, you can do little but grip the handle of the bed/arm of couch and hope some pain will subside SOON (all while nursing a hungry little person that doesn't understand the pain his mama is in. It's not easy nursing a baby when you can't move easily and are on what feels like too much for too long percocet and ibuprofen daily. Its not easy nursing a baby when you start wondering IF your wound is hindering healing/IF it could be a possibility that not enough milk is being produced bc of wound. Its not easy nursing a baby on demand 24/7, with 5 other children 7 and under at home. None of it has been easy, I have had so many doubts.